last night, i had a dream that put me in a state that i really don't like being in. although i have had simalar dreams in the past, this dream reminded me of how it felt, of how good it was, and just how much i missed it. whats really bothering me is that i have been having this dream more often nowadays. so, at the last day of the year, i am stuck in a thinking mood. thinking of about things that i would rather not post.

this is my attempt to get it out of my system. i don't want to start the year with this feeling. only 9 hours and 35 mins to go.